Erica Lucke Dean

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nobody said this was going to be easy

I used to daydream about the day I would see my book in print.  I planned the party right down to the menu and my wardrobe.  The guest list was a veritable who’s who in the industry…total strangers, but since it was just a daydream, I didn’t care.

The problem was I hadn’t finished a single book at that time.  I had started several, but I hadn’t finished even one.  I was young…and probably not very disciplined…and I had pie in the sky dreams of book signings, cocktail parties, and hobnobbing with other “famous” writers. 

Boy, was I naïve.   

These days I have a better understanding of the business side of things—lessons learned in my days as a business banker—and I no longer daydream of parties and book signings.

I will again, I’m sure…someday. 

But for now, my dream is to get a reply to a query letter that doesn’t say, “No, thank you.”

As of today, I have received three rejection emails.  The rejection is painful for a brief moment...brief only because I have convinced myself they are an expected and necessary bump along my chosen path.  Speed bumps designed to keep my head from swelling.  Reminders that I need to continue to perfect the writing…even when I am certain I am good at what I do.

I still dream…but now my dreams are attainable…and I think those might just be the best kind.

Until the next time…I’ll be writing…always writing!